Floraish

Love.

Love.

Love.

Nudie.

Can’t get this out of my head?

I want to sleep the dream of the apples,
to withdraw from the tumult of cemetries.
I want to sleep the dream of that child
who wanted to cut his heart on the high seas.

I don’t want to hear again that the dead do not lose their blood,
that the putrid mouth goes on asking for water.
I don’t want to learn of the tortures of the grass,
nor of the moon with a serpent’s mouth
that labors before dawn.

I want to sleep awhile,
awhile, a minute, a century;
but all must know that I have not died;
that there is a stable of gold in my lips;
that I am the small friend of the West wing;
that I am the intense shadows of my tears.

Cover me at dawn with a veil,
because dawn will throw fistfuls of ants at me,
and wet with hard water my shoes
so that the pincers of the scorpion slide.

For I want to sleep the dream of the apples,
to learn a lament that will cleanse me to earth;
for I want to live with that dark child
who wanted to cut his heart on the high seas.

That I am the immense shadow
Shadow of my tears

Right now? Obsessing over ‘His Dark Materials’ trilogy in an effort to stop obsessing over other little things not going to planned or not going my way. It’s working out for now..

Where are our lives?
If there is no dream
Where is our home?

We don’t know how
There will be a way
Out of the storm
We will find home

And her soul walks beside her
An army stands behind her
Lyra… Lyra…

And her face full of grace
Two worlds collide around her
The truth lies deep inside her
Lyra… Lyra..

And the stars look down upon her
As darkness settles on her
Lyra… Lyra…

Who’s to know what’s in the future
But we hope we will be with her
We have all our love to give her
Oh Lyra… Lyra…

And her soul walks beside her
An army stands behind her
Lyra… Lyra…

And her face full of grace
Two worlds collide around her
The truth lies deep inside her
Lyra… Lyra..

Life finally seems to be settling back into a routine now! I mean, in terms of not living out of boxes anymore! YAY!

I don’t know what to blog about, in fact, it feels so weird to be typing and stuff, I can’t describe it, but I guess that’s what a week long internet detox does to you.

I’m going to policing tomorrow for the first time in ages. I feel pretty bad about my hiatus but I’ve just been so busy! And I never feel very welcome there anymore I guess it doesn’t matter that much since I’m only really there for 4 hours a week, but still.. OH WELL.

Edit: …….I’m sorry, that ^^^ was terrible.

I’m looking at the above and it’s obvious that I am suffering some sort of contagious writer’s block and can’t really write anything above a grade 7 diary entry.

Man, I suck.

1. Are you dating the person you text most?
Kinda :3

[Where is Question 2? ]

3. What do you want?
That’s a pretty good question, unfortunately I’d have to answer it on many different contextual levels, but I really need to go to the bathroom at the moment, so I suppose ultimately, that’s what I want.

4. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
Mandy

5. Do you talk to yourself?
I think outloud, alot.

6. Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
I’m lactose intolerant!

7. Who knows a dark secret or two about you?
Nobody

8. How long is your hair?
Pretty long

9. Do you like Batman?
I love Batman! Best portrayed by Clooney and Bale.

11. Who did you last hug?
AS

12. Do you swear at your parents?
Not AT them, but maybe under my breath, and I do coat a lot of my conversation with sprinkles of profanity.

13. Do you like anyone now?
Not really, right now I’m in one of those moods where I’m harbouring whatever teenage angst I have left and hating the world and everyone in it.

14. When was the last time you lied?
I never really ‘lie’, more like ‘omit the truth’.

15. When was the last time you cried?
This afternoon in the middle of a shopping centre.

16. Is your birthday on a holiday?
St Patrick’s Day! If we were in Ireland, it’d be a holiday!

17. What instant messaging service do you use?
MSN

18. Last thing you cooked today?
I heated up some noodles for afternoon tea.

19. Did you have a nap today?
No, but so could’ve done with one!

20. Who’s house did you go to last?
LB’s

21. What are you currently listening to?
Pink - God is a DJ

22. Why is the sky blue?
It reflects the oceans.

23. Do you like green beans?
String beans, yes.

24. Do you swear a lot?
Enough to almost be a sailor.

25. Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing?
SES

26. Have any regrets?
Whoever doesn’t must live a very carefree life.

27. Do you use an alarm clock?
I use my phone as an alarm clock.

28. Where are you?
In my bed.

29. Do you ever snort when you laugh?
Uh, no.

30. What’s the first thing you notice on the opposite sex?
Their face.

31. Is cheating ever okay?
Never.

32. Do you want someone you can’t have?
Superficially, I want McDreamy so bad right now.

34. Do you wear underwear?
My name isn’t Britney Spears.

35. Who/What would you like to see right now?
An episode of SVU

37. Are you a social or antisocial person?
Pretty social~

43. What radio station(s) do you listen to?
97.3FM

45. Are you afraid of the dark?
Sometimes

47. Do you miss someone today?
Yes

49. Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
Not intentionally, but I’m sure there’s a few floating around cyberspace somewhere.

50. Last person who told you your problems were going to be okay?
AS

This isn’t really anything interesting, but I thought I would use this space to write out the must have DVDs I need. Yes, that’s right, these are the DVDs I desperately need:
Big Love
CNNNN
**Criminal Minds (Season One)
**Dead Like Me (Season One)
**Dead Like Me (Season Two)
Desperate Housewives (Season One)
**Desperate Housewives (Season Two)
**Desperate Housewives (Season Three)
Ghost Whisperer
Grey’s Anatomy (Season One)
Grey’s Anatomy (Season Two)
**Grey’s Anatomy (Season Three)
Heroes (Season One)
House MD (Season One)
**House MD (Season Two)
**House MD (Season Three)
Just Shoot Me! (Season One & Two)
Las Vegas (Season One)
Las Vegas (Season Two)
Las Vegas (Season Three)
**Las Vegas (Season Four)
Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (Season One)
Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (Season Two)
Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (Season Three)
Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (Season Four)
Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (Season Five) (Import)
Law & Order: Criminal Intent (Season One)
Law & Order: Criminal Intent (Season Two)
**Law & Order: Criminal Intent (Season Three) (Import)
NCIS (Season One)
NCIS (Season Two)
NCIS (Season Three)
Nip/Tuck (ALL)
Numb3rs (Season One)
Numb3rs (Season Two)
**Oz (ALL)
**Peep Show (ALL)
Summer Heights High
Supernatural (Season One)
Supernatural (Season Two)
The Chaser’s War on Everything (Season One)
The Chaser’s War on Everything (Season Two)
The Shield (ALL)
Will and Grace (ALL)
Ugly Betty
**Veronica Mars (Season One)
**Veronica Mars (Season Two)
**Veronica Mars (Season Three)

That’s really all I can think of for now~~

** Indicates what I really, really want -hint-

Well I would like to introduce everyone to the Flidori!

30ml Midori
10ml Ribena syrup
Lemonade topper (or Lemon Squash if you prefer)

I’m sure a similar cocktail exists, but I made this one using only what was in my fridge and I am damn proud of it. Besides, one drunk little brother can’t be wrong!

[x] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.

[x] I am really ticklish.

[x] I’m afraid of the dark.

[x] I can’t sleep in a room if the door is open

[ ] I can’t sleep in a room if the door is closed

[ ] I am homosexual.

[x] I believe in true love.

[x] I’ve ran away from home

[ ] I listen to political music

[ ] I collect /collected comic books

[x] I shut others out when I’m sad.

[x] I’ve stayed out all night.

[ ] I open up to others easily.

[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[x] I watch the news

[x] I love Disney movies.

[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.

[ ] I am a sucker for brown eyes.

[ ] I am a sucker for blue eyes

[ ] I dont kill bugs

[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name.

[x] I’ve slipped and fell in public.

[x] I love Spam

[x] I bake well.

[x] I have worn pajamas to class.

[x] I want a better job

[x]Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.

[ ] I love Dr. Phil.

[x] I like multiple people

[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[x] I am self-conscious.

[x] I love to laugh.

[x] I have tried alcohol.

[x] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.

[x] I have tried a cigarette.

[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.

[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.

[x] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.

[x] I can’t swallow pills.

[ ] I have a lot of scars.

[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.

[x] I like chocolate.

[ ] I bite my nails.

[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.

[x] I play computer games when I’m bored.

[x] Gotten lost in the city.

[x] Thought of suicide before.

[ ] Seen a shooting star.

[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas

[x] Hugged a stranger.

[x] Been in a fist fight.

[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose

[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

[x] Made out in an elevator.

[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose

[ ] Been skydiving.

[ ] Been bungee jumping.

[ ] Gotten stitches.

[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour

[x] Bitten someone

[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.

[x] Gotten the chicken pox.

[x] Crashed a car

[ ] Been to germany.

[x] Ridden in a taxi.

[x] Shoplifted

[x] Been fired.

[x] Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.

[x] Stole something from your job.

[x] Gone on a blind date.

[x] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.

[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

[ ] Been to Europe.

[x] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.

[ ] Been married

[ ] Gotten divorced

[x] Saw someone/something dying.

[ ] have a list of people you want to kill.

[ ] Ridden in a car over 400 miles in one day

[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[x] Thrown up in a bar.

[x] Eaten sushi.

[x] Cried in public.

[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.

[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn’t have.

[x] Thought of someone a lot lately.

[x] Hate/ have hated the world

Okay, watch for the flurry of amazing news!

* I painted Mum’s toenails. Nothing amazing, except she ASKED me to! She’s a girly girl at heart!
OH MY FUCKING GOD!
* Kevin Rudd went to a strip club.. in 2003! Somebody call the morality police!
OH MY FUCKING GOD!
* A woman got killed by a sociopathic camel! It had previously tried to kill her sheep!
OH MY FUCKING GOD!
* People who don’t observe unspoken house rules, suck!
OH MY FUCKING GOD!
* I feel, so good! I feel a good day coming on. Finally realised it’s what I need, not who!
OH MY FUCKING GOD!

And I hereby announce; “Flora - Still as cute as always”