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So I made a conscious effort to write something tonight.

The meeting went.. smooth? Well? Great? Lies. It was a slight disaster, with Carmel treating me as if I was in her Year 9 Religion class again. I called her by her first name, that’ll show her. Not much to report on besides Alex not feeling any bit of a remorse, or even pretend remorse. Just one act of defiance after another. Sigh. I really hope he grows out of it soon. I’m going to try getting him a job tomorrow me thinks. KFC. Where teenage hopes and dreams are crushed. lol, no seriously, it’s a great place to work. I think it’ll socialise him if anything.

At least worrying about someone else’s troubles have taken my mind off my own woes. Money woes, emo woes, family woes, job woes, uni woes. Woes all around! At least I’m not drowning myself in any of it. It’s all quite manageable. I’m on top of things mostly, but I just can’t stop spending money. It’s really terrible, and I wish I could stop, but I can’t. I eat a lot. I filled up the car this week - twice! And I have a really bad penchant for nice, material things! Oh well, it could be worse - at least I have a roof over my head and a cute smile.

I’m still pretty chuffed over my 75% win, as it equates to 30/40 which is 30% of the final grade! I’ve already scored 30%!!!! Together with my workbook being handed in on Monday, and tutorial participation, I will gain another 20% which puts me as having a pass mark in the course before final exams are even on! If only things were this easy for my other subjects! Victimology is going well I guess. Greg and I are working on a joint field report (4000 words, boo), and there’s a final exam for that too, but I’ve already gained a distinction. Now I know how Houlihan likes to mark her essays, we’ll be a sure win ^__^ Statistics though (once again, sneakily hidden under the banner of Sociology and parading as SOCY2339), is a whole new kettle of fish. I mean, Erin’s helped me so much with the assignments, I’m going to fail the exam for sure!

TGIF - And I’m fresh out of ideas for this weekend already. I think I’m going to be seeing That Cute Guy (TCG) tomorrow, so that could be interesting.. ^_~

I’ve just spent the last 20 or so minutes reading through my archives of May 2005. Ahh high school. Anyways, here’s a revisit. Almost three years ago I was:

Ahhh memories. How I hate thee so.

A superb week!

Before I forget: I SCORED 75% FOR MY FIRST EVER POLITICAL SCIENCE ESSAY!

Erin slept over my house last night, we both ended up working pretty hard on the stats assignment. We both owe a lot of blood, sweat and tears to the ‘Complete Idiot’s Guide to Statistics’ for teaching me everything I never knew about statistics in a matter of hours. Also I would like to personally extend a ‘thank you’ to Erin, because without her, I’d probably fail and have to repeat the course and I’d rather pour acid into my eyelids then do that. So thank you! (I gave her a block of Lindt as a prize :))

Today we ventured to the Gold Coast and visited Pacific Fair and Harbour Town. I didn’t buy much at all. Only went to my beloved SES store and bought two jackets :blush: Also bought a pair of plush toys; Mr and Mrs Potato Head. They are sooooo cute. Alex and I got one each, but they’re both going to live in my room.

Speaking of Alex, he’s gotten suspended (again) and we (the family) need to go see the APA tomorrow morning at 0800 before he can return to school. Not fun. She was just a teacher when I was there, and never struck me as someone who was passionate about their job and did it to educate bright, young minds. It will be ‘wonderful’ to face her again. The school’s only saving grace is my favourite teacher; who is on long service leave and the new guidance counsellor; Michelle. We shall be going to see her after the initial meeting to discuss things. Free therapy! Who can say no (especially since professional help comes at a price of $350 an hour)?

So I’m moving this weekend!

I really hate moving. My mum expressed that she probably grays a little more each time (from stress I’m guessing) with every move. It’s a really stressful task and I am deeply envious of those people who have never ever moved from their childhood homes and memories.

One thing I like about moving is new stuff. I’m pretty materialistic. Today I spent $700 on a new bedroom suite. It’s all white and pink, which matches the room, the carpet is this unexplainable cross between salmon and rusty pink, so it’ll all match. A bit later on I need to get myself some matching curtains, the ones that are there now are hideous! They’re Christmas green with red tartan trimming *vomit*. Who in their right mind would want to keep them!?

Anyways, I’ll have to post lots of pics when I do it up and everything. At this rate I think I rather be blinded by the sun then look at those repulsive curtains (back to the curtains again >_<)! It ruins the entire ambience of my room and everything I’m trying to achieve. Not to mention it clashes horribly with the carpet.

I’ll try to make this not about me, but it’s my blog so what if it does end up being about me?

So today, Carmel Barker (admin) calls my home. What did she want? To speak to my mother, I advised her to call my father’s mobile if she wanted to speak about Alex to someone who had an idea of who she was. Anyways, I was pretty puzzled as to what she wanted considering Alex is a bit of a nobody. Fast forward to about 1600 when Alex wanders in from school. He just throws me a letter and told me he spent the whole day in the Responsible Thinking Classroom (RTC). I do not believe in RTC. The school wasted an entire day sending him there when he was missing out on valuable class time.

Anyways, this isn’t about RTC. This is about truancy. Apparently he has been wagging every Wednesday in a bid to avoid going to sport because he keeps getting teased. A bit of a cop out excuse actually. Either way, he’s not being punished at home and I don’t think my parents really cared all that much. Not as much as me anyway. We have to meet on Monday morning before Alex is allowed to return to school, so essentially he’s been suspended. My brother the suspendee. It’s weird. I never had this kind of trouble. So on Monday morning, dad, Alex and I will be sitting in Barker’s office. I had never even been there. I think the only time I’ve ever been in any school admin office was AFTER I had finished school and needed to seek Elmore’s permission to start my Education practical. So suffice to say, I am nervous too.

On Sunday I am going to be working the Ambiwerra Food and Wine Festival with the VIPs from the station. I will be breathalysing people. That’s always fun. Telling drunks they shouldn’t drink anymore. It never works out too well, I know because I’ve been there

So over the last year or so I’ve been fairly involved in the real estate market, and not by choice.

I think in the last 18 months, I’ve viewed over 50 houses. Each one unique in it’s own way, with its own worth. I’ve come to understand a lot about the market and its ins and outs. I’ve found myself being overly critical of houses in an almost professional way, and even putting in my two cents with the agents themselves. I’ve considered being a real estate agent as a possible pre QPS career, but flight attending is still my main ambition.

Anyways, nothing else to report on. I hung out with my parents this whole weekend and looked at open houses

Oh also, Alex came home tonight and bought me a present..

a copy of Worms for DS -_- Thanks little bro!

So today all the relatives left! Well grandmother is still here, but she is leaving soon to go back to Rockhampton.

But anyways, this post is about cripples. Well since grandmother is old and frail, we hire a wheelchair for her whenever she’s in town. About $20 a week from the chemist with $70 bond. Anyways, so because she is leaving soon, we only hired it out until today, well.. we could only hire it until today but it was all coincidental and worked out anyway. So the deadline for return was 3pm. I got myself into Grand Plaza at 1:20ish? No worries, heaps early. Well when driving, I thought; ‘Why wheel around an empty chair when I can just have a go in it? Can’t be that hard!’, boy, I was pretty stupid.

I got into the chair and seriously, getting the hang of it took about forever. There were trolleys all over the footpaths and a nice gentlemen actually moved them all for me. Ahh bless him. The next hurdle? Crossing the road, up the ramp and into the shops.. Urgh. However, a trolley boy came to my rescue and took me across the road :\ You might not think this is very funny, but I can assure you, in parts it was anyway. I called LB and we had a right old laugh at it. Imagine, a girl sitting in the wheelchair, laughing her hysterical hyena laugh in the middle of the shops. It was crazytown.

John has also promised, well he offered to teach me to play the guitar. I hope I get it, I’m not terribly good at being musical (see any other posts made by me for proof), and my fingers aren’t connected to my brain too well But we’ll get there, and before you know it, I’ll rock it out!

So anyways, that was my day. Dropped the crazies (as John calls them) off at the airport and did a little bit of crazy stuff myself. Uni officially starts tomorrow! It’s going to be fun! I can’t wait, this week holds so much in store. Going to see LB, hang out with Erin more, get Cake Mania, meet John’s crazies! INSANE.

Sunshine Coast Trip v1.2

Well off again to the Sunny Coast, only this time it was with my family. I didn’t really want to go into Maroochydore and Mooloolabah, only because I had been there yesterday with Erin (haha selfish), so since they really had no idea or care about where we went, I stopped through Kawana Waters and showed them the new island estate made up of ridiculous amounts of opulence. It was insane. Beautiful, but insane. Insanely expensive! So off to gaze at what will never be ours, and then it was into Kawana Shoppingworld we went. My family used to own a restaurant in there, so I figured we’d be a bit nostalgic and take a peek in there. Oh my god! The whole place was topsy turvy! Some shops were the same but the layout was somewhat different, which I guess is expected in the ~11 years I haven’t been there. Gawd. Anyways, stopped in bought some random stuff.. okay, more accessories from Diva because this one had a bigger range *blush*.

So that was the shopping, where else on our random coastal adventure? I decided I’d show them my old house and the secluded beach that was 5 minutes walk away! They loved it, and frankly I did too. The Sunshine Coast is so.. easy going. Everything is. I love the beach lifestyle. I know Gold Coast also has a beach culture, but it’s not the same. It’s tainted with tacky souvenirs and peroxide blonde meter maids. The Sunshine Coast, in particular, Kawana is sort of untouched by all of that. Mooloolabah is its tourist part which is just fine since Kawana is almost tucked away from all of that

I would’ve loved to show my family some more stuff, but I had to work tonight so it was all kind of rushed. I did end up driving for a total of ~4.5 hours with 1 hour of that sitting in traffic on the Gateway motorway alone. Oh god it was just so shit. I was almost falling asleep. Thank god for audible lines I guess?

Oh and I found the cutest little knick knacks today! I got one for me and one for LB! They’re funny and I think he’ll appreciate them. If he’s anything like me (which he seems to be mostly :P), he will appreciate, but we shall see..~

I got my results for last semester today. They’re awesome. I got a 4 for Forensics and 6 for Police Studies! Which is a distinction! My very first 6!! I’m really happy! Now if only I can keep it up for the rest of the year, I hope so! Next semester, my uni timetable is a lot more crammed, but not too bad for a full academic load.

Mon:
CRIM2099 12:00 - 14:50 Crime, Race and Gender

Wed:
SOCY2329 14:00 - 17:50 Social Life in Action

Thu:
CRIM2080 10:00 - 12:50 Drugs and Crime

Fri:
CRIM2200 09:00 - 11:50 Corrections

Greg, my uni friend is going to be in 3/4 of my classes and since I’m going to be around uni during normal times and more frequently than last semester, I might see Erin a bit more!

Today mum, dad and I went to look at this house in Algester. It’s nice. I like it. I like it alot. I think moving house would be good for me. Another change to worry about instead of thinking about other stuff you know. Mum and dad are going to discuss it, but I think they love it too.

On to other things.. I don’t know what it is, but she’s trying to talk to me.. I really don’t know how to feel about it. I’ve been civil, composed and calm which is opposing everyone else’s opinions on what I should do. lol. I think I can be civil to the girl who stole my boyfriend, can’t I? At any rate, I’m sort of happy, glad, oh gosh, I don’t know, I’m just not feeling too negative about it. I mean, I was somewhat agitated as to what her intentions are, but I don’t know.. Ha, now I am just going crazy. I don’t mind it I think it’s healthy. There is so much I want to tell her, warn her. But I think everything I know about him now isn’t applicable. Because people change. I wrote an open letter, but I don’t know. It’s kind of too personal to be an open letter, but when I feel ready, I’ll get it out there. Good luck with everything. Honestly.

God only knows that honeymoon periods don’t last for long..

I’ve been thinking about lots of things over the last few days, and I think I am going to write my mid year review about me. So much has happened and unhappened in life this year to date that’s it’s just crazy to know where to begin.

This year I’ve tried many new things, many new experiences and met many new people and old. Gained some new insights, moved further along in my studies, and have generally had a blast doing so. Oh and not to mention my role as volunteer in policing has been excellent! I’ve a great support team at the police station and everyone is just as bubbly and friendly as I am.

My parents have also ‘loosened’ up a bit this year, I know because I am the eldest that they don’t always necessarily know how to do things or how to talk to teenagers but they do the best they can. Things at home have improved a lot and I am getting along really well with my mum. She’s been there for me when I’ve been ill and when I needed someone to talk to. People try to come between her and I, but I know she loves me so it doesn’t matter.

I am making plans too. Tate, Alex and I are going to HK next year. Hopefully it all works out because it will be a blast. I can’t wait to show Tatebus around the old country, I think he’d appreciate it. Oh and DISNEYLAND! HK has a Disney!!!!

I miss Erin, so much She’s my best friend and I hope we don’t come to some dreary demise like Sarah and I did. I don’t know, but I need her around so much, I wish things were like last year where we spent almost every day together Next semester, I hope things are better.

Fading into ins and outs of self pity. Not just about him but about everything else and everyone else. If things had this kind of ending, why did I end things with someone else? Because now I won’t be able to go back.. I wish I handled things differently and wasn’t such a douchebag who believed in an idea such as ‘romance’ and ‘following your heart’, because that only got me so far, no matter how hard I tried. Things shouldn’t have to be that hard..