Floraish

How noble are martyrs?

Dying for a cause seems to be a little too over the top. What about self sacrifice? Currently pondering the idea. It seems like the only likely solution to the stalemate. Or is it?

Last night was good. Actually, rephrase; it was really great. Cooking dinner, watching Betty, lying in bed. All great things. A snippet into what we’re like. We’re very good together in almost every way. Perfect symbiosis of compatibility. But it’s a new day and I sit around with a heavy heart just not knowing what’s going to happen or what to do.

Do I just do everybody a favour and opt for the time and space option of an unknown period of time?

OR

Do I wait it out?

Every time I’m faced with this question I always choose the latter. Wishful thinking perhaps. But the problem seems to always exacerbate further. If the problem doesn’t lie in me, wouldn’t it be smart to just let the problem be solved in my absence? If a lifestyle change is needed; and I must admit that I am a big part of that lifestyle; then why not take a change. Could potentially be positive for me too? (Who am I kidding).

But then again, why not be supportive and just stick around. It’s not my fault that he feels like he does. Right? So why should I have to suffer the consequences?

What’s right, and what’s wrong. I’ve no idea…