Floraish

Well I’ve had a couple of really good weekends.

The weekend before last, Steve and I went to Underwater World, it was my surprise birthday outing. So fun checking out all the animals and whatnot. Steve had never actually been there and it had been about 15 years since I was last there, so why not? Seal show was the best!

The weekend just gone, we finally went and saw the Watchmen. It was a very, very long movie. Kinda epic. I liked it but I felt a lot of unanswered questions were left for me as I hadn’t read the graphic novel (ten years ago!). On Sunday was my first day setting up my market stall. It was pretty busy. Made a nice chunk of coin for myself. But it would be a month of early starts before I make back all my outlay. Lex and Erin came along and spent the day sitting with me in the hot and windy sun. Best friends.

Kinda writing in broken sentences because I keep feeling this angst building up. It’s been there since last night but I don’t want to say anything to ruin how good Steve and I have bounced back from crap* since.

It’s probably all just me being insecure, but I know what I saw and I know what I read and I know how he acted to brush me off and get me to leave the room. I’m pretty sure I know how it will play out if I continue not to say anything… BUT I’m going to do it differently and have some faith in the person I love so dearly; not his fault if people are being inappropriate. Right? He should know how to handle it and we can just continue being together uninterrupted.

*indicates we had several discussions.