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Today has just been such a great day!

The most important thing that happened today was the reconciliation of the nubs! Kyrin and I are back!

Second most important thing? I’ve applied for a job! A real one! It’s civil service and in law enforcement, so I’m very excited! It’s exactly what I need without sacrificing everything I’ve achieved at uni so far. I don’t want to spill the beans on it just yet for now, but it’s HUGE! I’ve got everything worked out if I do get the job (it’s only a part time position) and it’s a great income supplementer and the best part is? It’s a foot in the door, which is something I couldn’t ask for more. Notifications are released around 8th May so hopefully I can report back here with some good news

If I don’t get it though, I’m not too worried as my previous plans aren’t disrupted and I’ll know to work harder for my goals. I’m pretty confident about this one, though I’m unsure how many positions exactly they are looking for. Could be a few since it seems to be a proper intake complete with 5 week (FULLY PAID!) training session.

Gah! I’m so excited that it’s 0018 Monday morning already!

This week has just been a breath of fresh air..

By no means was it super awesome since bad things happened and stuff, but it was just.. refreshing. I think I handled the week very well as there was minimal dramas and it even seems like a while ago since everything had happened. I mean, sure I’ve neglected my studies a little, but I think of how great my mental state is, and it’s worth it!

The weekend has been pretty crazy. I kept thinking yesterday was Sunday since it was so lazy. I made my way out to the bayside and had lunch at Victoria Point. It was just lovely. Even though it was a simple meal of italian, the ambience was perfect, the service was excellent and we sat alfresco overlooking a lake complete with fountain and wildlife. Conversation was stimulating and the company was delightful. Oh how I live for days like those.. it was just magical.

I’ve gone and changed the theme of my blog again, a few other subtle changes here and there, but all refreshing I guess. Also got Tatey to do an update on Wordpress too, so everything is running alot smoother.

Oh yeah, also got some business cards designed (finally), so now all I’m doing is shopping around for a printer to get the work done I’m so excited! Now at functions and things I can hand business cards out to people and be all professional!

I’ve got a full day planned ahead of me, so watch this space sometime tomorrow for updates!!!~~

I love Lazy Thursdays.. especially if they are followed by a public holiday Friday (ANZAC Day)!

So I’ve been rearranging my room and feeling quite.. good.

On Monday night I bawled my eyes out and screamed so loud both my parents ran up to see what was wrong. Tuesday I kept everything inside and shopped it out at Chermside. Yesterday I rearranged the furniture in my room and sat under the moon. It was nice. Today I just chilled out. I really couldn’t be bothered going to uni so I watched a swag of DVDs (all romantic comedies of course) and cleaned my room some more.

I haven’t really thought too much about ‘it’ since Tuesday. It’s been good. I feel good. It’s going to be all good! Okay, time to stop using the word ‘good’. I swear to god, I truly am! Just look at some pictures now.

Okay fine.

I’ll bite. I’m going to sit here and write something with substance (well, as much substance as there can be).

This week:

I don’t really know whether it was a mutual decision or not, but so far it’s been amicable (until the shit hits the fan again for some unknown reason - elaboration later). We’ve walked a long and rocky path together since 2004 and this is where we split and find out what the other side holds for us.

Well it was a long and slow process, but I’ve made it. Final step is to wait for my registration pack and my stamps etc to arrive in the mail and I can go and sign things Also in the process of deliberating whether I should get business cards done up, highly unnecessary but just so damn cool!

Completely uncorrelated to the first point, but I bought alot of things this week. On Tuesday I went to Chermside with Erin and shopped up a storm. It was so much fun. Then today I visited the DFO with Lexbus and LB and bought another pair of CT’s and a new uni bag. I’ll probably feel terrible at the end of the month when my statement gets here, but oh well. Live for the moment!

Even at the beginning of writing this, I wasn’t. But now I am. I miss Kyrin. Alot. It’s really upsetting as I can’t even apologise or ‘make right’ as I have no idea why he is angry with me. I can guess but he needs to tell me himself. Maybe we were never as good as friends as I thought we were, that’s just such a harsh reality I can’t live with.

We have got through so much worse than this before
What’s so different this time that you can’t ignore?
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

And I don’t know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness..

I’m pretty down right now.

I forgot to attach a piece of working out in my stats assignment (the one that I handed in with a little sense of accomplishment of submitting an assignment early for once) - luckily that can be rectified as it’s not officially due in until 4PM tomorrow, and I can just submit it on its own and leave an accompanying note explaining the situation. Pretty dumb on my part, but oh well. So dumb right now.

Also, I’m even more down because someone is upset with me. I can’t rectify that situation as I’ve got no idea what it’s about. It’s pretty gay, and it’s getting to me alot. This person doesn’t read this, but they should know that I can’t apologise for any mistakes I’ve made if I’m not aware of them. So.. please.

Sigh. At least I have a hat and a clean room.

Uni week 7

Seven weeks in, and I’m feeling pretty good! Yesterday I finished my Chinese tutorial at 12 and went right to the library to continue working on my 3000 word victimology ’short essay’. I worked about non stop until 4:45PM. And it was all solid work too *is proud*

It’s a bit of the rort, 3000 words is hardly short, nor is it appropriate for a second year course. I am feeling a bit ripped off now considering I should’ve did this course last year, but I didn’t because “I didn’t wanna be stuck at uni on a Friday afternoon”. Well, someone up there has blessed me with Friday afternoon classes ever since, and has made this current course even harder since the departure of another teacher last year (who was a complete pushover). GAH! indeed.

This morning I’m at uni as Erin has agreed to help me out with my statistics assignment. I wish I listened to my high school maths teacher when she said ‘No matter what you do; you will HAVE to do some sort of statistics at uni, so listen up!’ instead of scoffing in her face and going ‘Yeah right’. Man, she was right. I should write to her and tell her so.

So anyways, I’m waiting for Erin right now, and writing a long overdue blog about my rantings, ravings, opinions and utterly boring life. Actually, I’m rather chuffed with myself, yesterday was a real challenge, but I sat down and chowed down some concrete and got 90% of it done. I’m not stressed at all. The essay is due tomorrow and I’m finding myself relatively calm and collected.. about uni work anyways.

I now own a guitar! It’s cotton candy pink and is 3/4 size! I haven’t had a chance to have a jam yet (see above for reasons), but soon. All I gotta do is just teach myself and it shall be awesome. I mean, I shall be awesome too! I’ll post some pics when I get home if I can be bothered, but I also need a stand, some non gay picks and also need to desperately clean my room. I’ve sort of neglected it since I’ve become busy, which is an absolute bummer since I cannot STAND mess and I must be exceedingly busy if I can afford to ignore it for a couple of weeks.

The smart card I’ve been so religiously using, is the bane of my existence now. It’s ripped me off several trips, online top ups take a week to process and bus drivers don’t even know how to operate the very system they run on! It’s ridiculous and I’ve half a mind to make a complaint (actually, I will be calling them up later in the day to get my refunds).

Edit @ 1322: Erin showed up! She’s just gone now and I’m back in the library. We actually managed to finish off the whole statistics assignment, and it’s not even due until Monday *is proud*. I had another sausage roll for lunch today. That’s my third one in three days. I’m pretty disgusted.

I haven’t seen my friends much at all. Everyone is so busy with other things and other people, time is a bit of a luxury these days. KP’s schedule is completely scrambled that I don’t even know what’s on when now, so we haven’t had a chance to hang out since le BBQ (where I caught a cold and got sick, and still am). Oh well. I don’t think I want to talk about her anymore. Things are different and I’m sad.

Erin is finally going to move out of home already! Yay! I wish I could move out with her; but I’ve got things too good at home right now, and I’d miss my doggies too much Back down to earth and uni work for me!