Floraish

On Friday, my friend Tate and I, are going to get our hair cut, anyone who’s met me will have noticed my hair, which is like… UBER long. I’m going to get a crop cut, so it’ll be a little above the shoulder, I can’t wait!

To the regular readers of this blog, besides myself and Tate (fag), you may have noticed some changes.. good ones

It all looks very sexeh now doesn’t it? Yes, well I must agree, and no more poker/casino spamming through my comment box.. Yay.

I miss my mum.. she’s coming back next Thursday. Wow, you know what, I’ve really taken her for granted, it’s weird not having someone wake you up early for important stuff, and remind you stuff and have the house tidy and the laundry done.. Really, it is. I miss her lots, and not because I am a lazy bum.. Seriously, her going away has made me realise how hard it is for her, working every day, for hours. Trust me, I’ve been doing it so far for a week (Only until next Thursday to go! w00t), waking up, cleaning the house, going to work, coming home at 10, nagging the rest of the family and then going to sleep and the cycle starts all over again.. Now everyone, this is a message to be nice to your mums! Don’t take them for granted, and remember to kiss and hug them everyday.. I just wish I had a closer relationship with her before I realised all this… Ahh, I know when she comes back my normal teenage angst filled self will be bitching on this very blog about how much she annoys me but for now, I love her and thank her for always being there… even if I never noticed it in the first place.

Goodnight.

Why are people so… ARGH?!

Dreamer 宿命 says:
Thanks for telling me if you can or can’t hang out Flora.
.:. F£ºRÃ¥ .:. Maybe we’re better off that way.. says:
I love your sarcasm and guilt trips
Dreamer 宿命 says:

.:. F£ºRÃ¥ .:. Maybe we’re better off that way.. says:
I’ve been busy, I’m really sorry. But seriously, try working 11 - 11 every day
Dreamer 宿命 says:
What do you expect from me then?
.:. F£ºRÃ¥ .:. Maybe we’re better off that way.. says:

Dreamer 宿命 says:
I don’t have the face to tell you off.
Dreamer 宿命 says:
I know your busy.
Dreamer 宿命 says:
But last time i called you i offered that we could hang out. And you said maybe, so i asked you to tell me if or if not.
Dreamer 宿命 says:
But i’ve been waiting and waitng for some kind of contact.
Dreamer 宿命 says:
It’s always like this.
Dreamer 宿命 says:
And i’m not pissed off or anything.

I AM BUSY. I AM WORKING 12 HOURS EVERYDAY, NO REST. I DON’T HAVE TIME TO GO OUT FOR COFFEE WITH YOU SO YOU CAN BITCH TO ME HOW YOUR PARENTS DON’T UNDERSTAND YOU AND HOW YOU CAN NEVER GET A GF OR MEET THE RIGHT TYPE OF GIRL! FFS!

Oh and Merry Christmas ^_^

CURSE YOU AND DIE YOU SPAMMING FUCKS!

[/coarse language]

I am so tired. Mentally and physically exhausted. I don’t know why, I need sleep, but I can’t. I just think, lay awake, thinking of bs stuff I don’t need to think about… or regret shit, and think about the future, everything. School, parents, life, friends, I even think about having children for fucks sake! That’s how fucked up and weird my thinking is, I have so much time, that my sleep time is now my thinking time, not by choice, believe me. Is this some sort of weird punishment my body is giving me (god knows why), but curse you brain! Curse you irrelevant thoughts and mindless ramblings! CURSE YOU!!! >_<

*It’s official, I am officially insane.*

I am yet to do my XMas shopping.. *sigh* So much effort required, and I am yet to post all those XMas cards I wrote out.. Bah.

Tonight is the start of my managerial (is that even a word?) at the restaurant… *sigh* YAY -

Btw, I got a job offer and an interview, but I must refuse them. gg >_<

I am going to say a goodbye to my grandma who passed away today, in her sleep, wasn’t ill, wasn’t sick, didn’t have cancer, didn’t smoke, NOTHING. She just died in her sleep.. At least she was peaceful… I wanted to tell her I loved her, but I never got the chance, and now she’s gone and I feel cold and mean that I am yet to cry tears for her… I still love you grandma and nothing can replace you.

=(

No more games… just plain honesty. Afterall, that is the best policy.

My favourite song at the moment, it’s a tad emo for my normal liking but here it is:

Green Day - Boulevard Of Broken Dreams Lyrics

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don’t know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I’m the only one and I walk alone

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I’ll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I’m walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what’s
F**ked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I’m still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a…

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I’ll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I’m the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I’ll walk away!

*runs around screaming “Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeemooooooooooooooooooo!*